just overwhelmed by the hard ones.
Friday, February 26, 2010
Overwhelmed
I just got back from the doctor. Another ultrasound. This time the baby wouldn't turn its head at all, we only saw hair. Disappointing. Then the doctor came in. The baby is small. It should be measuring around 4 1/2 to 5 pounds. Its only 3 1/2. No biggie, Brinley was small too. 5lb 13oz full term. The doctor said that since the baby is so small on top of the cleft there is going to have to be more tests. Great. They have to monitor the placenta to make sure it is fully functional. They also have to monitor the heart rate to make sure that it elevates to where it needs to be when the baby is active and that it goes back down when the baby is resting. Ok. So I go to the next room where they strap on the monitors. I have to do this twice a week, every week. The doctor comes back in. "I would like to give you a steroid to insure the baby's lungs will be developed in case we need to take the baby early." Say what? What do you mean if you have to take the baby early? I guess if the numbers of the placenta aren't where they should be, they will induce me early so the baby can get the proper nutrients that the placenta may not be producing. "Don't worry" she says "This is just standard, I am sure the baby is just small because you are small, it's all just precaution" Great, now I feel much better. Another 15 minutes goes by, in walks the doctor. "The monitor shows you have been contracting regularly every 3 minutes. I am going to send you to labor and delivery" Excuse me? I am not in any pain here and am definitely not in labor. Again, its precaution. So labor and delivery, here I come. I get changed into the attractive hospital gown and sit on the bed. All that is going through my head is, "wasn't this supposed to be a routine ultrasound? This is a mistake." In walks the nurse, who announces she is going to check if I'm dilated. Great. "Your at a one" Sweet. An hour goes by with me still contracting every 3 minutes. Checked again, still at a one. Finally, I can go home. Nope, not yet, I have to get the steroid shot. Right in the hip. Ouch. K, now I'm done. But not before learning I have to come back in the morning to get the second steroid shot. Fantastic. Now I am home. Feeling very overwhelmed. A lot of emotions. This is all very frustrating. I know this is very minor in comparison with what so many other parents go through with worse complications. But they are all setbacks. Expensive setbacks. The baby is still healthy and very very active of which I am grateful. Your prayers are very much appreciated in this long process. Like I said, I am grateful for all of the positive things
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Oh, Ashley I am so sorry. Just remember that it is all a part of His plan and will work out just the way its supposed to. You are in my prayers.
Hey little cuz... sometimes all the wonders of modern technology are such a hassle!! Just remember the Dr's are ultra concerned about litigation so they're going to be overly cautious about everything and you can say no if you don't want something or you don't think you need it. Trust your intuition. I know it sounds crazy but its hard to feel like you're in control of all this but you ARE and you're capable of making decisions for you and that sweet little babykin! You've made it this far!! I get so overwhelmed w/medical stuff too. It is probably one of the most stressful things for me! It will get better as you get more used to everything! Take care of yourself... I'll be keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers! Love, liz
37 weeks is considered full term and your almost there. make the doctors keep the baby till then at least. zoey was also small she weighed in at 5lbs 3oz at 36weeks 6days. it's good that the docs are being cautious. the monitoring is not fun either been there before while preggo with zoey as well. and have the docs considered maybe your contracting cuz' your a little stressed out? eekk. they keep giving all these bad news. i'm so sorry your going through this. soon that little baby will be born and in your arms and all this will seem like a distant dream. i'll also be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
It sounds like your doctors are really on top of things. We love you Ash. Prenancy is such an emotion roller coaster on it's own, so I'm sure this is really hard. You are strong. We are praying for you and that precious little one.
Somehow I missed this post. I had no clue that all of this had happened. You are in our prayers, let us know what we can do to help!
ashley, wow, i can't believe everything that is going on. we will be praying for you. are you still pregnant now? it is good that they were taking the precautions though.
good luck.
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